DeannaLynnCox

Thank God it’s Friday!  I have two days next week of work and school (even though it’s just my Monday class and he might not have it) then it’s off to Thanksgiving!  I probably won’t be around at all during Thanksgiving but I’ll explain that more next Tuesday.

Anyways, today I have class this morning (Ancient History), then I go to work and work for the rest of the afternoon.  I’m meeting a friend of mine for Coffee at Starbucks before she heads out of town for Thanksgiving with her family in NY.  I’m actually going to get my Chi Tea with Pumpkin Spice, yummy!  Then I’m going to come home and just relax!  Well try to relax as much as possible. 

I’m ready for this Thanksgiving break.  I feel like I barely get anything done at work any more.  I just feel distant from myself a lot of the time.  I know it’s just cuz I’m overwhelmed and it’s that time of the semester.  I mean we only have two classes left and one of those is the final, but I still just don’t feel right.  It’s a very strange feeling to have but I’m sure that I will be fine.

Yesterday I went -750 cals!  So lets see how good I do today.  I couldn’t believe how much food I ate and was still -750.  Amazing!  I’m ganna go eat some breakfast and get going to class.  Then I’ll head to work and try to catch up with you all then.  Take care!

Hey my awesome Buddies,

Sorry I wasn’t around yesterday I had a lot of things going on between my reinstatment to KSU meeting, work, my meeting with my adoption worker and homework…plus my night class.  Blah, to much stuff going on!  I want to thank you all for your advice on the Sandwiches…I started by cooking it in the oven (I dont’ have a toaster oven) and that made a huge difference in the taste.  I’m going to try different seasonings and toppings as well to jazz it up and see what tastes the best.  So we’ll see what I can do from here.

I woke up this morning and there was ice on my truck so I started it to warm it up.  Out of habit I guess I locked the door with my house keys in it.  Since I’m living at my parents house right now still recoverying from everything, I wasn’t at my house.  Thank God my parents had a spare key to my truck (which we had to dig for).  I’m just hoping that my morning isn’t an indicator of how the rest of my day is going to be.

Well my reinstatment meeting actually went really good to get back into KSU!  All of the committee members agreed that it was time for me to come back because they honestly think that I am ready for it!  YAY!  So I will finish this semester at Highland and head up to KSU for the spring semester in January.  That is a huge HUGE weight lifted off of my sholders!

I then had my meeting with my adoption worker yesterday and she thought it was a great idea to go to a counslor.  She said that she believes that it will help me work through and process the situation of giving my son up and maybe even help with all the other stressful situations going on right now in my life.

Yesterday between being busy and being so stressed out I only ate dinner!  The only thing I had before that was a NOS energy drink…yeah that is really healthy for me.  I used to be a stress eater…now after giving Ashden up I have become a stress non-eater.  So I’m trying to write out exactly what I need to eat during the day to make sure I actually eat!  :-(  I hate the feeling of being down! The other feeling I hate is when you feel down or just lost but you have no idea why…icky…I hate it!

On a good note…it is Thursday which means tomorrow is Friday which then means its the WEEKEND!  Haha…you have to think positive right?! 

Take care!

Hello All,

So I’ve been having a few days of being pretty down and depressed.  I was sent home from work yesterday, I seem to sleep a lot but it never is enough, and I have a lot of emotions yet I can’t seem to work through them.  I’m looking into talking to a counslor.  I think it would be good so I can try to process everything I’m feeling.  It was like things were going just fine and then I hit a brick wall.  Keep me in your thoughts ladies, I need as many prayers as I can get right now!

Now on to why I titled my post this way.  I am obsessed with sandwiches.  Sandwiches from Subway, Mr. Goodsents, Planet Sub, Quiznos, Rock - A - Belly Deli…well I could keep going.  So I remember a lot time ago I had asked people for some advice on how to make sandwiches at home because they would be even healthier…but I can’t get them to taste even close to the sandwiches you get when you eat out.  How would you go about toasting them so the sandwich is hot and yummy?  The oven?  What kind of bread should I use if the loafs of regular bread just doesn’t taste the same?  I know this might be weird and some people might not be able to help but any advice or even just random ideas you might think will work is better then nothing!  I really need to start saving money but I also don’t want to just have to deal with the same old two peices of bread, meat, mayo and cheese sandwich.  I like the lettuce and tomato and all of that, but can’t seem to figure out how to make them taste a little fancier.  Does this make sense?

Well I’ll try to get around to everyone’s sites this morning/early afternoon.  I have a friends party I’m going to tonight but I have a feeling I’ll just make it to dinner with them and maybe a few drinks.  Other then that I’m going home to get some sleep.  I have the reinstatement meeting tomorrow morning at 9:15 so I will find out about 9:30 if KSU is going to let me back in for the Spring semester…why does everything seem to have to hit you at the same time?!

Take care!

Hey buddies!

This weekend was a great weekend.  I’m so glad that Robin and Mel came into town to see me.  We had a blast even though we didn’t get the most sleep in the world.  LOL.  You only live once right?!  We went out to McGraws the country bar that I used to go to all the time before I got pregnant.  We went there both Friday and Saturday.  Yesterday we just had a hang out, sit back and relax day.  We played cards, watched movies, and ate pizza!  Haha.  I only had two peices. 

This week I am just planning on keeping on track with my food intake and then getting back into the swing of school since I didn’t even think about it once this weekend!  That was a nice feeling!  I only have a month left and one of those weeks is Thanksgiving break.  Since my classes are setup at this school to be once a week that means I only have three classes left and one of those classes is the final!  Wow, crazyness.  Then it is Christmas break and I’m ready for that so I can get back to my house (I’ve been staying with my parents since the first week of October because of it being my last month of my pregnancy and I didn’t want to be at home when my water broke all by myself).  I’m thinking about moving back to my hosue this next weekend but Christmas break will allow me some time to get my projects laid out and get into a regular non-pregnancy schedule.

Well I know that I missed a lot over the weekend so I’m ganna get around to everyone’s posts today and get caught back up!

Take care and have a fabulous Monday!

I have such wonderful buddies on here!  I have appreciated all the support and encouraging words! 

I’m so ready for the weekend.  Robin and Mel are getting ready to head this way right now so in about 12 hours they will be here.  We are going to have so much fun.  I plan on sticking to eating healthy even with them here but if I slip a little bit I’m not worried about it.  I’m still losing a little weight at a time but I don’t plan on really focusing on that until after my 6 week check up.

The thing that really stinks about pregnancy is that it stretches all your abdominal muscles out, and your skin of course, so then when you have the baby you have this pooch.  I have been doing small crunches that are in my “What to Expect When Expecting Book” so that should help start to tighten those muscles and hopefully pull in the pooch.  I weigh less now then I did even before I was pregnant but it stinks that with this pooch I can’t wear my pre-pregnancy jeans yet.  They fit everywhere but they just wont button. 

Well I’m at work but I am going to get around to everyones sites today since I will not be able to check this until Monday.  Lots of catching up to do then!

Take care everyone and have an awesome weekend! 

Hey All,

I’ve been very stressed out and tired lately.  I know that subconciously I’m really bothered by the adoption, not regreting what I did, just the feeling of loss.  However, I am not dealing with it completely out in the open.  I seem to be putting my stress onto work and school.  :-(  The semester is almost over though and we only have 2 full weeks of school left plus the week of thanksgiving and then finals week.  One more “month” of school!  Then hopefully I’ll be heading back into KSU to start up in the spring.  Next wednesday (when Ashden, my little boy, turns 1 month) I have my meeting with the Kansas State University committee to see if they think it would be ok for me to come back to KSU.  I haven’t been sleeping well lately either.  This semester has just been really REALLY hard! 

Hopefully I won’t turn to food to help my emotions out.  This weekend I have a couple of my friends from New Mexico driving 12 hours to hang out with me.  It will be SOOOOOO great to see them.  And I think I’m ready for a real break of not doing much of anything but hanging out a bit.

Well I am at work so I better get back at it.  I’ll get around to everyone’s sites later this afternoon when I’m done with work!

Take care!

Hello All my awesome Buddies,

I hope everyone is having a good week and that your Wednesday is going fantastic.

So sitting around waiting for my 6 week check up to get here is very annoying!  I’m frustrated because I want to start working out but I can’t so I just get all these different ideas in my head for what different exercises I should do.  I was thinking about joining this K.O. Boxing place in town.  There are classes for dancing offered where they incorporate boxing moves into a few of their dance routines.  The problem is that you must take a Boxing 101 class for 8 weeks and that costs $200+ dollars.  Then the gym membership is another $270 (for 6 months, so about $45 a month).  The $270 isn’t the problem it’s that first $200+ for the Boxing 101 class that I don’t like.  :-(  So I think I’m just going to have to be patient and see if I get back into Kansas State for the spring semester.  If I do then I get free access to the KSU rec center and they offer differet types of workout classes.

My question is if anyone on here has the Wii fit and if they really enjoy it?  My mom has one and one of my coworkers has one and they both really like it.  I was thinking about asking for the Wii fit for Christmas but I don’t want to do that if I’m not going to enjoy it.  I’ll have to read up on it as well, but I’m also hoping to just get some insight from some Buddyslimers…you are the best people to ask! 

Well have a good day and I hope to keep up with all of you today!

~Deanna~

Hello All,

I had the baby on October 21st and he is now with his wonderful adoptive family.  I love him and I’m going to think about him every day but I know that being with this wonderful couple is better then him growing up without a father and a poor mother who  is trying to get through college.

I have until December 8th to wait to really start working out.  I can only do small crunches and such until that appointment since it’s my 6 week check up.  I’m going to try to start eatting healthy right now though so I have a head start on that.  I’m so ready to start working out again and to start dancing!  I’m going through major withdraws right now.

I hope everyone has been good.  I fell off the face of the earth for awhile there between being pregnant, school and work.  I didn’t get to keep up with many of my friends at all let alone any of my social networks. 

Oh the positive…I went into the hospital at 177 lbs and as of today I’m 156 so that is 21 lbs…of course that is because I had a baby.  I am back to my pre-pregnancy weight but when I got pregnant I ended up going down to 147 before I started gaining weight.  So my first goal is to get back to that 147 and then see what happens from there.

Keep me in your prayers and enjoy the pictures of my little man!

Hello all,

I just wanted to get this out there real quick.  I’m not going to be the best buddy that I can be the next few months.  I’m always just so tired.  When I get home from work I just plop myself down and it’s so much work to just get up and make dinner.  :-(  I thought I was supposed to be getting a boost of energy here towards the end of my 1st trimester…where is it??!! 

Things are going good.  My first doctors appointment went good.  We really didn’t do much just a lot of filling things out and a lot of talking.  My next appointment is on Friday when they’ll do the full physical and then I’ll hear the heart beat.

That’s really all that is going on for me right now.  I haven’t hung out with a lot of friends because they all want to hang out so late that I just can’t hang with them anymore.  The baby just drains me and if I try to go out then the next morning is so hard for me to get myself out of bed!  :-(  This should all be very interesting.

Well I gotta get back to work.  I’ll really try hard today to make it around to everyones sites!

Hello all,

Thank you so much for your encouraging words.  I do really appreciate it so much!  Things are going ok still.  I have my first doctors appointment this coming Tuesday with the nurse and then the appointment with the doctor on the 17th.  I will be about 12 to 13 weeks along by then and I will be able to hear the heart beat. 

I am weighing in at 147 (on our work scale) with my work clothes on which surprised me.  I feel like all I do any more is eat and not healthy…well except the past few weeks…but still I figured I’d have gained weight big time!  One of my friends and I are starting to walk after work on days that it’s nice out and we both aren’t busy.  It’s beautiful out today…a great walk day…but I already had plans to go out and eat with a friend at 6.  Darn!

Oh and I’m getting out of the Insurance job with the boss I was having a lot of problems with.  She is starting to look for another assistant and once she hires one I’m going to work full time at my other job!  Woohoo!

Then in the school front.  I am going to a community college next semester to get my Associates in Arts and then I’m heading back to KSU to finish the 30 hours that I’ll have to complete my degree!  I only have a 1 1/2 years left of school and then I’m done!  There is also another Equine tour next may (like the one I went on to Ireland, England, and Scotland) only this one is going to Spain, Morocco, and Portuagel.  I’ve ALWAYS wanted to go to Spain so that’s my opportunity!  I’m ganna have to start saving up for it big time tho!  So I can go and have another amazing experience on my side!

I’ll try to get around to everyone’s pages by tonight.  If that doesn’t happen then def tomorrow morning!